Mummy has been really busy 'resting' these days.. It's tough for her to work, sleep and look after me with didi growing inside her each day. She's really doing a great job now.
Well, back to me, I have been talking a lot these days. I have also learnt to put words together to get what I want. For instance, I'll say "put here".
I also attended Minh Li's birthday party and I had loads of fun. Thanks for inviting me, MInh Li!
We also went to a chinese restaurant to have dimsum cos daddy wants to terminate the starhub account. I had really yummy char siew buns and century egg porridge. I ate 1 and a half baos! Daddy and mummy were so shocked.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Javier's 3rd day at school
Today is Javier's 3rd day at school and I dunno how he's gonna be like. He was crying from 9.30 to 10..30 yesterday. I think he'll cry again today, but I hope he will settle down soon. It's so difficult... I dun want him to think I abandon him but at the same time, if I give in and pamper him, he will not settle. I thought for a long time yesterday and made a few calls to ex-colls, n the consensus is to let him cry is better for him in the long run. No matter what, he's a boy. I have to trust the teachers and my son. He can do it. I will have to try.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
A decision to leave it to God.. I'm just going to be happy
Finally, finally, after so much tears and stuff, I've decided that since I can't do much for my job except wait and see how my morning sickness goes, I will leave it to the God above to decide. For a long long while, I have been thinking about going back to work, then the puking makes me so so sick that I put it on hold. Then I worry about not being fit enough to go back when my leave ends in 9 days time. Then I detest this little life inside me, cos I can't do all of the 'normal' things that I did before and I just lay on bed most of the day. And, not forgetting the scholarship I gave up for this baby.. WIth my mum, maid, and hubby doing everyhting for me. I am just too sick, i figured. And I figured its because I am pregnant, to the extent that I told my hubby that it just does not make sense to have a 2nd child.
I thought long and hard for the past week. Today, I read something that just tugged at my heart.. It's about abortion and how the baby felt when the mummy doesn't want it anymore.
Abortion
Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now...I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has
happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my
existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable
place.
I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far
along in my developing, yet not near ready to
leave my surroundings. I spent most of my
time thinking or sleeping. Even from my
earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried
with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I
heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and
hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day. I
hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were
so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing
happened. A very mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was
screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me
please! Mommy, help me." Complete terror is
all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I
thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster
started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the
pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as
it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such
complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never
see your face or hear you say how much you love
me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had
so many plans to make you happy. Now I
couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your
daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful
death. I could only imagine the terrible things
that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me away to a wonderful
place. Then I was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He
answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to
tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally
got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just
wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion
monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to
go through the kind of pain I did. Please be
careful.
Love,
Your Baby Girl
Although abortion was never on the cards for me, I felt that the baby has a life and he loves me. He doesn't mean for me to suffer this way and the feeling of detest I had for him was so silly, so unfounded. If I, as his mother don't love him, then he can feel it and he will be very very sad. When I thought about this, I think I woke up. He's God's gift. And, I will love him, just as I loved Javier.
So, now, I leave whether I will be well enough for all my 'normal' events to GOD, I can't do anything... And I believe I will live through this and say, "I'm happy for this family, for this life I've lived", when my time is here.
I think too much? Maybe... but at least it's sorted.
I thought long and hard for the past week. Today, I read something that just tugged at my heart.. It's about abortion and how the baby felt when the mummy doesn't want it anymore.
Abortion
Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now...I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has
happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my
existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable
place.
I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far
along in my developing, yet not near ready to
leave my surroundings. I spent most of my
time thinking or sleeping. Even from my
earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried
with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I
heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and
hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day. I
hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were
so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing
happened. A very mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was
screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me
please! Mommy, help me." Complete terror is
all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I
thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster
started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the
pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as
it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such
complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never
see your face or hear you say how much you love
me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had
so many plans to make you happy. Now I
couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your
daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful
death. I could only imagine the terrible things
that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me away to a wonderful
place. Then I was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He
answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to
tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally
got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just
wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion
monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to
go through the kind of pain I did. Please be
careful.
Love,
Your Baby Girl
Although abortion was never on the cards for me, I felt that the baby has a life and he loves me. He doesn't mean for me to suffer this way and the feeling of detest I had for him was so silly, so unfounded. If I, as his mother don't love him, then he can feel it and he will be very very sad. When I thought about this, I think I woke up. He's God's gift. And, I will love him, just as I loved Javier.
So, now, I leave whether I will be well enough for all my 'normal' events to GOD, I can't do anything... And I believe I will live through this and say, "I'm happy for this family, for this life I've lived", when my time is here.
I think too much? Maybe... but at least it's sorted.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Our day on 4th July
Today, mummy and daddy brought me to see my little baby... We still dunno if it's a boy or a girl, but we know that my little sibling has got hands and legs all ready. I still am not sure what Dr. Lim was doing with that funny thing around mummy's tummy and i wonder what's the screen for. BUt, mummy and papa say that Dr says my little baby is much more stable now and they are really happy. I had sundae at Mcdonalds too and enjoyed it tremendously.
Well then we pack food back home and I fell asleep in the car, now I am awake and busy playing at home. I will probably take my nap at 2pm today!!!
Well then we pack food back home and I fell asleep in the car, now I am awake and busy playing at home. I will probably take my nap at 2pm today!!!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Updates for the Javier and his family
It's been a long time since my mummy posted... I know. And you know why? At first, she was very very busy with work, then she discovered she has another little baby in her.
Ever since mummy has a little baby, she has been confined to the bed on weekends. As for weekdays, she also stayed home and didn't step out of the house at all (she's on unpaid leave for a month). Mummy's really poor thing; she keeps throwing up and I am always so sweet to bring tissues to her. Mummy does not dare to drink water too.. cos once she does, she will vomit. ANyway, other than the puking, we, as a family, my papa, mummy and me, really looks forward to my didi or meimei's arrival next year.
Daddy's been companying me more on weekends.. he brings me to the park for fun, cycling, running, sand, slides... papa's been super, you know? He's been caring for mummy too.. whenever mummy wants to eat, he will go the distance to get it. He's my dad, a real dad.
Ah ma has been caring for me on weekday nights and days too... cos mummy's not well.. And, so, ah ma has been toiling and although mummy knows she's really tired, ah ma always insists that she will come with us back to Bishan. Ah ma is really good. And I know why, her heart aches when she sees my mummy 'suffering'. But, but, mummy's 'suffering' will end in 9 months with another heartthrob, so it'll be all worthwhile. it will be joyous..
Eka's been good at her duties, though she occasionally still make mummy scream. hahaha... ah ma says she's so so scared of mummy. She has been companying me with daddy making trips for fun and running errands and doing housework to simple cooking for our family. And, I love playing soccer with her at home. It's loads of fun!
Okie, that's the status of the household. Will try to change photos on my blog later. Take care and muackz, with lotsa love.
Javier
Ever since mummy has a little baby, she has been confined to the bed on weekends. As for weekdays, she also stayed home and didn't step out of the house at all (she's on unpaid leave for a month). Mummy's really poor thing; she keeps throwing up and I am always so sweet to bring tissues to her. Mummy does not dare to drink water too.. cos once she does, she will vomit. ANyway, other than the puking, we, as a family, my papa, mummy and me, really looks forward to my didi or meimei's arrival next year.
Daddy's been companying me more on weekends.. he brings me to the park for fun, cycling, running, sand, slides... papa's been super, you know? He's been caring for mummy too.. whenever mummy wants to eat, he will go the distance to get it. He's my dad, a real dad.
Ah ma has been caring for me on weekday nights and days too... cos mummy's not well.. And, so, ah ma has been toiling and although mummy knows she's really tired, ah ma always insists that she will come with us back to Bishan. Ah ma is really good. And I know why, her heart aches when she sees my mummy 'suffering'. But, but, mummy's 'suffering' will end in 9 months with another heartthrob, so it'll be all worthwhile. it will be joyous..
Eka's been good at her duties, though she occasionally still make mummy scream. hahaha... ah ma says she's so so scared of mummy. She has been companying me with daddy making trips for fun and running errands and doing housework to simple cooking for our family. And, I love playing soccer with her at home. It's loads of fun!
Okie, that's the status of the household. Will try to change photos on my blog later. Take care and muackz, with lotsa love.
Javier
Monday, April 13, 2009
Our trip to Hongkong
hahaha.. we finally made our way home from Hong Kong, Shenzhen, Macau.. It's a long long trip.
There were some events that are worthy of mention.
Day 1: Disney Hollywood Hotel
I fell from the big big bed cos daddy ask mummy to pack the backpack while he watch over me. But alas, daddy turned around to pack the camera bag, then i crawled and fell off the bed. I cried buckets! Mummy was so so upset she scolded papa and cried. Luckily, grandma was with us and managed to calm all of us. Papa felt terrible and mama too.. Mama said sorry to papa and they huh hug each other.
Okay, after that, the highlight was Disneyland, of coz. The fireworks was splendid. Ah gong and ah ma were so happy! Mummy and daddy also, and me too... though I fell asleep 15 minutes after the show ended.
Day 2: Planned visit to Lantau
The planned visit to Lantau didn't materialise as it was raining. so we ended up shopping at tung chung. Mummy had an enjoyable time. We went back to the hotel for the check out and guess what?! I fell asleep in the pram. So the 4 adults went strolling in the park. We became wu jia ke gui. Hahaha...
Day 3: Hong Kong Day tour
We went for the typical city tour and then we ended up in shenzhen where we had good food and cheap shopping. We rested in the hotel which was pretty pleasant.
Day 4: Windows of the world
We went for the typical shenzhen city tour. It was quite pleasant as we had a pretty good tour guide. Mummy bought me a laughing buddha jade pendant, hoping that I will always be so so happy.
Windows of the world was impressive but I slept all the way, until I reached Paris. hahaha...
Then I did the tap dance on stage with ah gong. Hahaha...
Day 5: Macau
We reached Macau in the evening and decided that a nice slow dinner for the night fit us all. We went for a nice Portugese meal and ah ma managed to find a bakery selling local goodies. so she ended up food tasting in the shop and we bought a carton full of goodies.
Day 6: Macau - HK
We had city tour and then we went for the famous church wall. I was awake until I reached the wall. hahaha... so the 4 adults concluded that I always sleep when we go for the important sights.
We also had portugese egg tarts and I had a good time in one of their theme parks, I have some hotos to show how I look like du shen!
Day 7: HK
We haven had much time in HK actually. So we decided not to go far. We went for a nice dim sum breakfast and then to Ladies market. Then it was time to head home. Check out the photos.
Some things I realised during the trip:
[1] J's a big boy now. He can walk really well and run fast.
[2] He's a real happy boy.
[3] He's scared of mascots.
[4] He hates shopping.
[5] He's fussy about food.
[6] He sleeps at 9am.
I love my boy and family to bits. I am terribly tired but I dun regret going for this tour.
There were some events that are worthy of mention.
Day 1: Disney Hollywood Hotel
I fell from the big big bed cos daddy ask mummy to pack the backpack while he watch over me. But alas, daddy turned around to pack the camera bag, then i crawled and fell off the bed. I cried buckets! Mummy was so so upset she scolded papa and cried. Luckily, grandma was with us and managed to calm all of us. Papa felt terrible and mama too.. Mama said sorry to papa and they huh hug each other.
Okay, after that, the highlight was Disneyland, of coz. The fireworks was splendid. Ah gong and ah ma were so happy! Mummy and daddy also, and me too... though I fell asleep 15 minutes after the show ended.
Day 2: Planned visit to Lantau
The planned visit to Lantau didn't materialise as it was raining. so we ended up shopping at tung chung. Mummy had an enjoyable time. We went back to the hotel for the check out and guess what?! I fell asleep in the pram. So the 4 adults went strolling in the park. We became wu jia ke gui. Hahaha...
Day 3: Hong Kong Day tour
We went for the typical city tour and then we ended up in shenzhen where we had good food and cheap shopping. We rested in the hotel which was pretty pleasant.
Day 4: Windows of the world
We went for the typical shenzhen city tour. It was quite pleasant as we had a pretty good tour guide. Mummy bought me a laughing buddha jade pendant, hoping that I will always be so so happy.
Windows of the world was impressive but I slept all the way, until I reached Paris. hahaha...
Then I did the tap dance on stage with ah gong. Hahaha...
Day 5: Macau
We reached Macau in the evening and decided that a nice slow dinner for the night fit us all. We went for a nice Portugese meal and ah ma managed to find a bakery selling local goodies. so she ended up food tasting in the shop and we bought a carton full of goodies.
Day 6: Macau - HK
We had city tour and then we went for the famous church wall. I was awake until I reached the wall. hahaha... so the 4 adults concluded that I always sleep when we go for the important sights.
We also had portugese egg tarts and I had a good time in one of their theme parks, I have some hotos to show how I look like du shen!
Day 7: HK
We haven had much time in HK actually. So we decided not to go far. We went for a nice dim sum breakfast and then to Ladies market. Then it was time to head home. Check out the photos.
Some things I realised during the trip:
[1] J's a big boy now. He can walk really well and run fast.
[2] He's a real happy boy.
[3] He's scared of mascots.
[4] He hates shopping.
[5] He's fussy about food.
[6] He sleeps at 9am.
I love my boy and family to bits. I am terribly tired but I dun regret going for this tour.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Decided on school for me!
Mum's decided on school for me. I'll be spending some time at Masterpiece till I am old enough for kindergarten.
Today has been a tiring day for mummy and she just hopes to constantly remind herself that it's a real blessing to have me.
Thank God for giving me my dearest boy,
whom i promise to hold and love
unconditionally
faithfully
and
loyally
May I be thankful for the moments when I fume at his tantrums,
cos it means he's still close to me.
May I be joyous when he kicks a fuss,
cos it means he knows what he wants.
May I be aware of what I've got,
And be thankful and grateful.
Today has been a tiring day for mummy and she just hopes to constantly remind herself that it's a real blessing to have me.
Thank God for giving me my dearest boy,
whom i promise to hold and love
unconditionally
faithfully
and
loyally
May I be thankful for the moments when I fume at his tantrums,
cos it means he's still close to me.
May I be joyous when he kicks a fuss,
cos it means he knows what he wants.
May I be aware of what I've got,
And be thankful and grateful.
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